Dang, that was fun.
Michael was missing, which meant there was a Junior-sized hole in the funny. But Friday's Tantrum+The Union was a fun show—and holds up on video, which always feels like a good sign. Tom was a fantastic monologist, and Corey & Mo's set was terrific—smart, funny and disturbing in a very good way.
I tend to watch videos of the shows kind of a lot. Like, sometimes more than a few times in a row. Over several days. To the point where I can parrot entire scenes. That way I can obsessively pick apart and second-guess my performance. (If I can get that far. I got so annoyed at the way I was standing at the beginning of the last library show—hunched over, with my arms folded—that I haven't gotten past the first few minutes yet. See? Obsessive.) So, from this show:
- MUCH better posture.
- I mostly fulfilled my goal of coming in and just reacting to my partner—except for a couple of quick adds, which went fine.
- In the first scene, I remember very specifically letting go of my original idea for the scene and following Megan, who had a better one.
- I had some good edits—without (I hope) being overly aggressive.
- I played cancer as "sexy," and my scene partners could tell I was playing cancer as "sexy." I see both of these as major achievements.
- All my awareness of the Viewpoints stuff—gone. Shape? Topography? Spacial relationships? Duration? Repetition? GONE. I need to practice it more.
- I tell my kids to cheat out. And yet, I directly face my scene partner and turn my butt to half the audience.
- I treat "um" like it's an actual word.
- Two very unconvincing make-out scenes with Josh. I mean, not even good pretending. It's just...I've never been able to fake a make-out scene with a girlfriend, fiancee or wife in attendance.
- If I'm saying, "It's just that..." it's a very clear sign that I'm not letting the scene advance.
- Am I seriously that whiny? Good GRIEF.
- Would it kill me to play a fucking character every once in a while?
Yeah, yeah, yeah...I pay attention to (and learn from) the other players, too. I just don't spend as much time pulling them into tiny pieces.
(Jill, if you're reading this: The "bad" is not self-flagellating. I had fun and am mostly OK with my performance. But it can use refining.)